Therapy Session

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1. Yeah, I got off stage like a month ago
2. I was talking to fans
3. And one of them pulled me aside and said
4. "We never met but I swear that you know who I am
5. I been through a lot
6. I don't know how to express it to people, don't think that I can
7. But I got that Mansion CD on rotation
8. That's real for me Nate, you do not understand"
9. It's crazy for me
10. Kids hit me up, say they slitting they wrists on the daily
11. This music is more than you think
12. Don't book me for just entertainment, it's entertaining
13. Hearing these parents, they telling their kids
14. My music is violent, you gotta be kidding me
15. I guess that your definition of violence and mine
16. Is something that we look at differently
17. How do you picture me, huh?
18. Want me to smile? You want me to laugh?
19. You want me to walk in the stage with a smile on my face
20. When I'm mad and put on a mask? For real though!
21. I mean, what you expect from me?
22. I'm tryna do this respectfully
23. They say that life is a race
24. I knew my problems would probably catch up eventually
25. I do my best to be calm
26. How you gon' write me and tell me you'd slaughter my family?
27. That's just a glimpse to the stuff that get sent to me
28. These are the parts of my life they don't never see, woo!
29. I am aware it's aggressive
30. I am not here for acceptance
31. I don't know what you expect here
32. But what you expect when you walk in a therapy session, huh?
33. Therapy, therapy session
34. Therapy, therapy session
35. This girl at the show looked me in the face
36. And told me her life's full of drama (yeah)
37. Said her dad is abusive
38. Apparently he likes to beat on her mama
39. I got so angry inside
40. I wanted to tell her to give me his number
41. But what you gon' do with it right?
42. You gon' hit him up then he'll start hitting her harder
43. That's real
44. These kids, they come to my shows with tears in they eyes
45. Imagine someone looking at you and saying your music's the reason that they are alive
46. Sometimes, I don't know how to handle it
47. This type of life isn't glamorous
48. This ain't an act for the cameras
49. You see me walk on these stages but have no idea what I'm dealing with after it
50. I put it all in the open
51. This is the way that I cope with all my emotion
52. I'm taking pictures with thousands of people
53. But honestly, I feel like nobody knows me
54. I'm trying to deal with depression
55. I'm trying to deal with the pressure
56. How you gon' tell me my music does not have a message
57. When I'm looking out at this crowd full of people I know I affected?
58. Ah, I got some things in my life (my life), I know I should let 'em go (let'em go)
59. Let me jot it down (jot it down), let me take a mental note (mental note)
60. I put it all in this microphone (microphone), think about that for a minute
61. What is the point of this song? Just venting
62. But what you expect from a therapy session, huh?
63. Therapy, therapy session
64. Therapy, therapy session
65. What you think about me
66. That doesn't worry me
67. I know I handle some things immaturely
68. I know that I need to grow in maturity
69. I ain't gon' walk on these stages in front of these people
70. And act like I live my life perfectly
71. That doesn't work for me
72. Christian is not the definition of a perfect me, woo!
73. I ain't the type to be quiet
74. I ain't gon' sit here in silence
75. If I wouldn't say what I say to your face
76. Then I promise you I wouldn't say it in private
77. I am not lying
78. People go off on my page and I'm trying to quit the replying
79. But this is ridiculous
80. I'm passionate man, I really mean what I'm writing
81. You want me to keep it a hundred? Okay, I'll keep it a hundred
82. I see a whole lot of talking on socials
83. But honestly, I don't see nothing in public
84. I kinda love it, yeah
85. "Why don't you write us some happy raps?
86. That would be awesome
87. All your music is moody and dark, Nate"
88. Don't get me started
89. You wanna know what it's like if you met me in person?
90. Listen to my verses
91. This music is not just for people who sit in the pews and pray at the churches
92. I've been rejected
93. I don't expect everyone to respect it
94. I don't expect you to get my perspective
95. What you expect from a therapy session, huh?
96. I mean, I think sometimes people they confuse what I'm doing
97. I write about life, I write about things that I'm actually dealing with
98. Something that I'm actually experiencing, this is real for me
99. Like this is something that personally helps me as well
100. I'm not confused about who gave me the gift
101. God gave me the gift, and he gave me the ability to do this
102. And he also gave me this as an outlet
103. And that's what music is for me
104. When I feel something, whether it's anger
105. Um, it's a passion about something, or frustration
106. Like this is where I go, this is, that's the whole "NF Real Music" thing, man
107. This is real for me, I need this, this is a therapy for me