Mansion

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1. Insidious is blind inception
2. What's reality with all these questions?
3. Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in
4. Slept in
5. Broken legs, but I chase perfection
6. These walls are my blank expression
7. My mind is a home I'm trapped in
8. And it's lonely inside this mansion (mansion, mansion)
9. Yo, my mind is a house with walls, covered in lyrics
10. They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
11. Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
12. And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
13. That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
14. And let out the version of NF you don't wanna see
15. I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
16. You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
17. Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't wanna be in
18. That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't wanna see it
19. And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't wanna see 'em
20. But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
21. I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
22. Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
23. Matter of fact, I think I'ma burn this room right now
24. Somehow, this memory, for some reason, just won't burn down
25. You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
26. Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed, and I cried
27. Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
28. But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
29. Insidious is blind inception
30. What's reality with all these questions?
31. Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in
32. And slept in
33. Broken legs, but I chase perfection
34. These walls are my blank expression
35. My mind is a home I'm trapped in
36. And it's lonely inside this mansion, inside this mansion
37. Yo, my mind is a house with walls, covered in pain
38. See, my problem is, I don't fix things, I just try to repaint
39. Cover 'em up, like it never happened, say, "I wish I could change"
40. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
41. This room's full of regrets, it just keeps getting fuller, it seems
42. The moment I walk into, it's the same moment that I wanna leave
43. I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
44. But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
45. I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls
46. Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
47. One of the first things I wrote was, "I wish I woulda called"
48. But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
49. And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
50. And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
51. Shrug it off like it ain't nothing, like it's out of my hands
52. Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
53. And I regret watchin' these trust issues eat me alive
54. And at the rate I'm goin', they'll probably still be there when I die
55. Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
56. The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?
57. Insidious is blind inception
58. What's reality with all these questions?
59. Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in
60. And slept in
61. Broken legs, but I chase perfection
62. These walls are my blank expression
63. My mind is a home I'm trapped in
64. And it's lonely inside this mansion, inside this mansion
65. So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
66. I built a safe room and I don't let no one in there
67. 'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear
68. And not come back, and I admit, I am emotionally scared
69. To let anyone inside, so I just leave my doors locked
70. You might get other doors to open up, but this door's not
71. 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
72. And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
73. I'm barricaded inside, so stop watchin'
74. I'm not coming to the door, so stop knockin', stop knockin'
75. I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in
76. I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience
77. I know that shuttin' the world out ain't solvin' the problem
78. But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
79. I built it because I thought that it was safer in there
80. But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's livin' in here
81. Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in
82. Maybe that's the problem, 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since
83. I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious, he never did
84. He must have picked a room and got comfortable and settled in
85. Now I'm in a position, it's either sit here and let 'em win
86. Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
87. 'Cause in order to do that, I'd have to open the doors
88. Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore
89. It's lonely
90. Inside (inside), inside (inside)
91. It's lonely (it's lonely)
92. Oh, yeah, it's lonely
93. Inside this mansion